Erika's World

Sometimes I wish that I lived back in Cali 'cause seriously I am so bored with my life here. Not bored I just feel like, I don't know, I just feel like life was more fun there. I often think That it's more fun being young in Cali but while I was there I missed Sweden and all the familiarity of everything that I know. I was more independent there. I mean I have other dreams apart from college. I don't know, but I just want to find myself a little bit more which I am desperately trying to do. I love being a fangirl 'cause you meet the most amazing people and get endless support whenever but I am starting to feel like I should chill a little bit on that. But it's hard and people don't understand, except other fangirls. If I explain it all to you you won't understand, you will say that it's not the same as the "real" thing. But that is the real thing. Though I haven't had any fangirl feels the last couple of weeks because as I said I am try...

OMG! Well, I don't know? Hmm, I like Santa Barbara, it's beautiful and all but...... it just feel like it's too much of vacation here. I don't maybe I will feel better about this whole situation once I have found an apartment. Yeah. Plus this shitty hostel doesn't make me feel better (it just makes me want to go home), because the internet is soooooooo super duper slow. WTF! Yeah. Hmm. My friends - Jai and Isabella (a girl who came last night to the hostel) and I are thinking about going to a Starbucks tonight. Damn, 'cause I need a good internet connection. You know what? I just miss the comfort of being at home. A home cooked meal (sure you can cook your own food here at the hostel but it's the smallest kitchen ever), watching TV, my bed. I, I just miss the comfort, the realness of it all. That's why I feel like I want to go to New York. I have never been there so I don't know how "real" it is, but I know it's kind of "real...