Erika's World

Hola guys. I really do not know what to say tonight. I am not int the best mood right and I don't feel like discussing it with you. I mean if I did then I would have plenty to say. Probably a whole bible. I'll just continue to write and see which words my brain will use to form sentences. You know what. I actually wrote something the other day. A little piece of text, I don't know if you exactly can call it a poem but I wrote something the other day. And I really like reading that little piece of text, it's like a good song that makes you feel good. LOL. I don't know if this little piece of text makes me feel like but I do like reading it. I used to write poems when I was younger and the I was convinced that they had to rhyme and now I don't really think that specifies poems. If you want your poem to rhyme, then that's you. LOL, it may also be because I am really not that good at rhyming. Hahaha. But I really like writing. Especially little pieces of texts...

Hi! How are you? I am okay except for the fact the wifi signal is just as useless as shit right now. OMG, nothing annoys me as much as a crappy wifi signal (I know I know, first world problem). I don't know why but I just feel this huge kind of rage like feeling building up inside of me. Like oh my God can you just work for at least 30 minutes straight so that I can finish this blog post. But now way, you decided that it is more fun to fucking mess with me and only work for about 30 seconds and then not work for the next five minutes or so and then you continue like that, over and over. Like motherfucker please STOP, you little piece if shit!!!! If I had more 3G in my phone, OH BELIEVE ME, that you and I would have no relationship at all. So I feel like now that you and I are stuck in this fucking horrible situation that you could be a little bit more reasonable and mother fucking work with me! Ha, well at least any normal human being would think so. Oh, that's right, my bad - ...

Sometimes I wish that I lived back in Cali 'cause seriously I am so bored with my life here. Not bored I just feel like, I don't know, I just feel like life was more fun there. I often think That it's more fun being young in Cali but while I was there I missed Sweden and all the familiarity of everything that I know. I was more independent there. I mean I have other dreams apart from college. I don't know, but I just want to find myself a little bit more which I am desperately trying to do. I love being a fangirl 'cause you meet the most amazing people and get endless support whenever but I am starting to feel like I should chill a little bit on that. But it's hard and people don't understand, except other fangirls. If I explain it all to you you won't understand, you will say that it's not the same as the "real" thing. But that is the real thing. Though I haven't had any fangirl feels the last couple of weeks because as I said I am try...

When  I am down or had a bad day I always tell myself: "Don't focus on what has happened. That is just going to make you depressed. Tomorrow is a new day. Focus how you can make tomorrow a better day." What I mean is don't go and dwell on something. Just a little tip. I don't mean that you should push your feelings so far down that they will blow up several months later in front of a complete starger. Then you are just going to humiliate yourself or just seem crazy (depending on what you put this innocent starger thourgh). Never good. What do I know? Maybe that is how some people process their bad day, horrible experince or wharever they are trying to forget. Maybe, I don't know. Some people need to talk about something to process what they have been through. Some people may have another way. I can't tell you what or how to handle something bad/horrible because I am not a psychologist (I don't intend to either). your writer, Erika