Erika's World

I feel to empty to actually blog tonight. I feel stupid about it because it is stupid and few people would really understand. I just want to cry, it's that bad. Twice tonight I felt that I just wanted to burst into tears. OMG, what is fucking wrong with me. It would be easier if I told you what this whole thing was about but I am not going to do that. I am just going sit here in my own misery and probably cry myself to sleep. Yup, I am that pathetic. No, I am actually worse, but that's another post for an other day. But seriously I just hate this feeling. I literally just want to bang my head against the wall. What will that help with? Basically just all of it. But IDK, then I'll have to keep banging my head against the wall for all eternity. Hahaha, now that feeling is gone 'cause I got distracted by something in SWD. Funny stuff. Hmm, I kind of feel like only the people in SWD would understand me, but though we are close to 2 000 people there are only a few people i...

I wonder if I can get Camryn publicist to get me tickets to the One Direction concert in Stockholm on May 8th? I mean it's probably a long shot and she probably has a different publicist here in Europe. Hmmm. I don't know. I'd probably have to give her something in return like an interview with Camryn, that'd be cool and I love to do it. A backstage interview so that maybe I'll get to meet Liam, Harry, Niall, Zayn and Louis. Hahaha. It'd be super fun if I could do an interview her. Maybe I should just throw away a mail and see what they'll say. Hahaha. Ohmigosh, what if - that horrible "what if" - she (Camryn) doesn't have the same publicist anymore!? Gosh no. This is her latest music video Now or Never , the song is actually pretty good. This one and  Wait and See . I don't listen to her that much but it doesn't mean that I don't like her or think that she has talent. your writer, Erika

Yop! It's Halloween this weekend, well actually it's next Wednesday, so that will be in a week but it's Halloween weekend this weekend which mean tons of parties. From what I have heard IV is going to be crazier than the past few years. Not that I would now anything about IV Halloween since this is my first year here and ever. I don't understand how it could be anymore crazier since from what I have heard about the past IV Halloween's. I mean all the cops, the drugs the booze. Just all the everything. Hahaha, if I went to such a party I would make all the photo's on facebook from the parties not available for some people to see. When I say "some people" I mean family members. They see me in a certain way and - yeah - we want it to stay that way. Yes we do. Not that I have a wild side, but once in IV, I guess. Who am I to talk really? I haven't been to a IV party, and not to IV for that matter either. I have been to the UCSB campus but that was befo...

You'll be my William and I'll be your Kate :) your writer, Erika

Look what I bought today! I bought it for my scrapbook. I am going to put in some pictures later. Not tonight, but some other day. I am going to ask my mom where all the photos are and see if I can find any of me as a kid on halloween. I have a few on my mind. ýour writer, Erika