Erika's World

Hi hi. Yeah so I shot some scenes and sketches for Partaj . It was fun. It always fun shooting Partaj , oh yeah of course I took some pictures today but I'll post them on Sunday or whenever (saying whenever since I didn't post the pictures that I was going to post last weekend until yesterday. Oooops, sorry I didn't mean to. I swear, I promise. Hahaha, I mean it just happened since I didn't feel like writing. Seriously I don't know what to do tomorrow. Yeah, yeah I have a few appointments but other than that I have no clue. Like my mind is so under stimulated it is not even fun. I just need to do something that is me but that is a little difficult right now. Maybe difficult is not the right word to explain it but "not do-able" is a better way. OMG. I really don't know what more to say. So I am just going to end this post by wishing you all goodnight and hope that you sleep good tonight because, yeah, I am going to bed now. See ye, well talk you tom...

I just feel weird. Like, I want to run into a brick wall or something. That's how I feel often. I mean it's not going to solve anything. It's just for that one moment when I hot the wall everything is going to okay. I will feel at peace. Then the millisecond after, everything will be the same again. IDK. Basically life I guess. I am just bored. Mostly I am bored with just living here. Here, meaning Stockholm and Sweden. I don't know but I have seen it all and done it all. Even if I had more money, or a job it would still just be the same place. But I am not sure if I want to go back to America and go to school. I mean yes I'd like that. I think that education is very important and I encourage all of my friends to get a degree, I am just not sure that it's for me. You know what I mean? Last year when I went off to college in Santa Barbara I was excited because I have always wanted to go to school in the US but I also was like "What the fuck have I just don...

Hi, I am feeling sad right now. Frustrated more than anything. I've been feeling alot more frustrated lately. More than usual. I just HATE that feeling. Oh, gosh. I just want to throw my computer across the room. Toss something, just something. the more significance it has the better you will feel for that micro second before you go back to feeling damn frustrated again. I would say that there are five stages of frustration. 1) sad, 2) frustrated, 3) angry, 4) fucking angry and 5) annoyed. Well, maybe there are just three. The first two and then any of second three. Hmmm. Sometimes I just think that it would just be simpler if I just didn't exist. That might sound suicidal but I it's not, it's just that all of those frustration triggers ( I don't like that word "triggers" ) wouldn't exist. I am just saying that it would all be simpler not better. There is to much joy in life to be sad or take the easy way. We should take action, instead of bitch abo...

Hi guys! OMG, it has be a crazy couple of days. I mean for me. The lady I am staying with is crazy! Well, she's weird. I mean I thought that everything was fine and then all of the sudden she started yelling at me when she came home from work yesterday. I was completely taken off guard, Like where is all of this coming from? She complained that I do certain things and that I don't to certain things. I am like what?! Completely taken off guard. When I moved in I asked her if she had any rules or something that she wanted me to do. She said no. All she said was that she wanted me to do my own dishes (which I do). That was it. Now she's made because I don't do this list of things that she didn't even tell me about. Then she was like "I think you better find an other place to stay." I was like what? Because another place means I'll have to go back to Sweden (which would be comfortable and nice). So I got sad and started crying. Then she said that she wasn...