Erika's World

Yo! I made my very own almond paste for the first time today! It was really easy. I also made nutella but I have made that before. I am going to make a Christmas candy called "Mozart kulor" tomorrow so I just wanted to try to make my own almond paste just to see how easy it was and to learn how to do it. The most annoying thing was to peel off the peel on the almonds. I mean to took a few minutes. It was just boring. Oh my God you guys! Like I am so freaking bored right now! I mean seriously I could go to bed to just because I am bored. My boredom has led me to looking through pictures from Santa Barbara and Los Angeles. I don't now but for some reason I had a thing where I always took selfies of myself in the mirrors in the WC at the movies. For some reason the WC was always, well often anyway, empty so I just snapped some pictures. Hahaha. I am looking at all of my selfies from SB and IDK they are awesome, I mean hmmm I don't know how to say this in english (it so...

YOLO everyone, YOLO. How are y'all feeling this fine fine Saturday? LOL, nah I am good. I am just sitting here and watching a movie. Nothing special. Tomorrow there it's Sunday and after that there is another week and that means back to Partaj again. Well on Wednesday anyway since we shoot on Wednesday's. But tomorrow, what am I going to do tomorrow? Hmm, anyone who has any ideas? Hahaha maybe you are just as bored as I am or maybe it is just me. Hahaha I am weird but you still got to love me right. I am adorable. I am going to leave you with an old video from when I lived in Santa Barbara, what's in my purse. (Oooo, might do another video like that tomorrow, well I am going to video blog since I have kind of had a writers block the last few days). your writer, Erika

So I was thinking earlier about what I wrote yesterday and surely I can suck it up for one semester because so that I can go and see One Direction. Hmm or maybe I should just try New York. Mohahaha! I don't know, NYC seems like a lovely city. Seems, since I don't know. Hmmmm. I just did my nails. Well, I did them started this post, "spaced out" (aka got distracted by something else). Anyway, what I wanted to say is is that I do not like the result so tomorrow night I will redo them. I have to buy new nail polish remover tomorrow 'cause I don't like the one that I do have. Why can't they have CVS in Sweden or at least sell CVS's own brand here? Hmmm. I used their nail polish remover when I lived in SB and I liked it. Hahaha, the one that I have now is some cheap brand that I bought at Inn och Finn (like the 99 cent store, it's cheap but not just 99 cent cheap, lets just say that it cheaper, okay). Never buying that again, I can tell you that. Hmm,...

I just feel weird. Like, I want to run into a brick wall or something. That's how I feel often. I mean it's not going to solve anything. It's just for that one moment when I hot the wall everything is going to okay. I will feel at peace. Then the millisecond after, everything will be the same again. IDK. Basically life I guess. I am just bored. Mostly I am bored with just living here. Here, meaning Stockholm and Sweden. I don't know but I have seen it all and done it all. Even if I had more money, or a job it would still just be the same place. But I am not sure if I want to go back to America and go to school. I mean yes I'd like that. I think that education is very important and I encourage all of my friends to get a degree, I am just not sure that it's for me. You know what I mean? Last year when I went off to college in Santa Barbara I was excited because I have always wanted to go to school in the US but I also was like "What the fuck have I just don...

Do you know what today is? Exactly one year ago to the date I set off on a four month (and four days) long journey which involved college in the US. One year! Fuck! I mean it has been on year! One year ago (um, this post might be dated August 10th 2013, so just to clarify I moved to California August 9th 2012 - it probably will be dated the 10th since I usually blog around midnight) I moved to freaking California in the freaking United States of America! I mean it's so hard to imagine it even though it has happened! I mean I lived a life long dream of mine. There is no better feeling the living your dreams! Even though I had some rough times (and believe me I had) I am so thankful for the opportunity because otherwise I would just be sitting here and thinking "Why?", "What if?" etc. You know? I am so thankful for everything. I have so many other dreams that I want to achieve! I just have to be more driven. I know, or I mean what's stopping me from my other...

LOL. So I rented this movie, Think Like A Man , today but I don't think I am going to watch it. I mean I don't think that I have time to watch it. Because soon it's Lotta på Liseberg  and an old friend whos' a backup dancer for Mary N'Diaye is going to dance behind her tonight so I want to watch that. I mean it's always fun to see people you know/ used to know succeed in whatever makes them happy. Hopefully I'll succeed in something some day. I like a lot of things. I feel like the most successful thing that I have had the last few years was Have It Hollywood but I stopped that. I mean when I first moved to Santa Barbara I ha barely no internet at all so I couldn't blog at all for a few days. Then I just didn't have time because of school and all I have now is Erika's World. I mean this blog is not as demanding as as HIH was. I mean I used to update HIH at least 20 times a day. I mean when you're in college you don't have time for that. I...

I get so weirded up when I have no school and work to worry about. I am like it's Friday but no it's only Thursday. Soon it's Friday in less than an hour. I need a focus or something. LOL. I know what I want but that seems impossible. Like what am I even thinking but I am going to try to do my best and go for it. I have not direct plan for it just go for it! YOLO, life is to short to make plans! Live in the moment. Plus right now it's summer time! Hahaha. Sometimes I just say stuff without really explaining what I am talking about. I mean sometimes I don't want people to know the underlining story, maybe the whole thing is too complicated or it is just gone too long for me to actually say what it really is. Sometimes I feel like should start Have It Hollywood again. I mean you know it got kind of successful but at the end, well why I stopped blogging was because when I moved to SB the hostel I stayed at had a crappy wi-fi and then I just didn't have time/ didn...

OMG! Today has been along and hot day. Reminder to self: not to wear as warm clothes tomorrow. I didn't wear warm clothes, okay maybe my black leggings (okay maybe I should have worn shirts instead). Plus, I just check the weather prognosis for tomorrow and it's going to rain, why does that matter? Huh, I am going to be inside all day so maybe I can wear shorts anyway. Hmm. Eh, I'll just wait until tomorrow to see what the weather is like then. I am glad the weather is good! I just wish I was in Cali instead, I mean is much more fun to got to the beach there compared to here. I remember the first time I went ti the beach in SB. I took off my shoes (because I was on the, that makes sense right?) but I had to put them back on because the sand was burning my feet! Seriously, I don't understand how the people playing volleyball didn't get burn injuries on their feet?! That, yeah that surprises me! It really does, cause I tried to fight it but I was too weak. LOL. I ...

Watching Keeping Up With The Kardashians is not good! I miss Cali. LOL, but when I am in Cali I miss Europe. Hmm. Maybe I should move to London. Australia? LOL, that's even further away. Whatevs! I am not going to school next semester. What I'll be doing I haven't quite figured out. YOLO. Work I guess but I mean other than that. No, I don't know. All know it's summer now and I am going to try to enjoy my time the best way I can. I am also going to try not to over think the little things that upsets me, which is alot easier said than done. 'Cause I tend to do that alot. Hmmm. I feel so free! I mean no school, like what the heck am I going to do. Have fun! I want to go the beach but the beach here is not the same as in Cali. Gosh I miss. It's a different way there. Things are just different. Hmm. Maybe someday (obviously) I'll go back there. I need to. I'll buy a house in Malibu, Venice, Santa Monica or something. I don't know. Maybe in The Hills...

OMG! Today I went to school IN SWEDEN for the first time in like 8 months or so. It was weird. They spoke swedish. Nah, but it was weird. I don't know. It's like people are different here, I mean yeah of course they are. I am just, I don't know. I've gotten just to the Cali style of life. Just how people are and act and represent themselves. Here people are much more reserved. In the US (well in Cali, or well in SB - 'cause that's where I lived) people are more outgoing. I like once you get to know someone here there is no difference between the two it's just, hmm, I guess people are more cautious. Lisa (the woman that I stayed with the longest) said that people in New Work (she's from NY) are not as friendly as in SB. Like, in New York people wouldn't just start talking to a stranger. If someone were to do that people would just like at them like their crazy or just ignore them and way away. So that's in the same country. I feel like some Swedes...

Hmmm, so I guess it's time for the last post for the year. This has certainly been a year out of the ordinary. I graduated from high school, I went to Berlin with my senior classmates, I moved to the United States (and back again), plus (and do not forget) I went to school in the United States. Something I've always wanted to do, though I had high school in mind but if you do that you have to repeat that year when you come back and no than you. Now 2013, what do you have in store for me? Can we top 2012? Well, I think that we can if we just try? Where should we move next? Hahaha, away from home would be a good start since I can't live at home forever but for now it suits me. I mean it's comfortable. (Oh, damn I was just looking through my facebook pictures and I forgot about the release party/ fan event for Justin Bieber's Believe ). I don't really have any New Years resolutions. I never have any. It's just always the same. Do whatever you can to be whatev...

Hi guys. How are you? Nawh, sometimes I just wish that we all could have a virtual hang out. Don't you think that that would be fun. "Meet" people from all over the world. Learn about different cultures from people actually living there. I mean it so much more of a richer experience to actually experience the culture on your own or actually taking to people who are living it. What do you say? Well, maybe when I have a few more readers. It would be kind of lame for just myself sitting talking to myself. Hahaha. That be kind of just a blog, Today I started reading Sophie Kinsella's Mini Shopaholic . I actually bought it before I left for the United States so that I would have something to read on the plane or while I was there. Hahaha, that was a big laugh 'cause tough I thought many times about reading it, but I actually never did. Never even opened the book. I just didn't have time because of school and yeah, school because that took up most of my time. Blah...

Heehaw! Howdy! Whatever. Damn! I am flying back home next week. NEXT WEEK! What the fuck happened? LOL (or not). Apparently alot of people (swedes) are not continuing at the school next semester. Some people will just finish this school year and then go home again. Damn! But yeah, I can only speak for myself. I don't know but I felt that I thought that everything was going to be different. I don't know in which way exactly but different. Just I don't know (is it wrong to say), more movie magic. That's so foolish to say but... no not movie magic. Just something else. It has but not in that way and yeah, things have calmed down a bit and sure yeah I could continue but seriously there are other factors involved that i seriously don feel like taking about here. My friends they know. Gosh! Bitches please. Ha, but I could still see myself living here. Not in Santa Barbara tough, it's a too small of a town for my taste. But somewhere else in California. Cali, Cali, Cal...

It rained today incase you wanted a weather report. I don't know the lines for any of the plays I have to learn study lines for, which means a lot of studying this weekend. Film paper and three fucking scripts to study. Okay that fucking might sound like I am nagging like it's a bad thing. I mean yeah, of course I am complaining I have alot of schoolwork to do and not knowing any of the lines is going to show the most. If I don't know the answer to a question on one of my finals okay it's just one question, it's going to hurt me more if I don't know any of my lines. My professor for my Beginning Acting class told me that on Monday he will take note of who can and who doesn't know their lines. Ooops! Fortunately, I don't have that many lines for that play. I am in one scene. We are doing the first two acts of Our Town  by Thornton Wilder and I am Mrs Gibbs. For my Intermediate Acting A I have lines to half a scene to learn. The second half of the first sc...

Hmmm, I am starting to think that people think that I am depressed. I'm not depressed, I am more sad. I don't know why, I just am. It's not like I wander around in self pity. That's not my think and if I did so I would really get depressed. I am too good for that. Since I am not jumping up and down out of joy I try to see the light at the end of the tunnel. You know, the Justin Bieber concert on Wednesday and I am going home on December 13th. Yeah, I am going to spend Lucia in the air. Oh, and the season premiere of  Once Upon a Time tonight. I haven't finished watching season one yet but I will until next week's episode. See I don't know what I thought coming here was going to be like. Okay, yeah I though it would be better, just great, awesome and all of those positive adjectives. But it hasn't really been that way. Or maybe it's my attitude. Who knows? I think that my attitude plays a part in this game, just that blame everything else. I remembe...

So here we go again! OMG what am I doing. I know right. LOL, you are probably wondering what is she talking about. Okay, I'll tell you. I am looking up courses and programs to study at Stockholm University next semester. Basically for the following three years. Mostly for next semester. I mean, yeah, I know that my dream was studying here in America. Mostly I think that I was confused by what that dream really meant and I still am. What I really wanted to do was to take a year of and do a high school year but then I found out that I would have had to repeat that year when I came back to sweden so I just shook it off. I mean repeat a year no thank you. Well, I saw that as a waste of time then. Like "I don't have time for that shit.". I have always had that dream to come to America, New York, Chicago, Seattle or LA for like a vacation. So maybe I felt like this was kind of my only opportunity to go to America. I never really had any desires to go to Santa Barbara. But, ...

What ya'll bitches doing? I am sitting here watching Americas Next Top Model: College Editon . Yup. That's my Friday night. Lame, right, gosh I know. I was supposed to go to this football BBQ thingy at school tonight but no one seem to be going. Well, at least no one of my friends so I don't want to go then. It's also lame to sit there by yourself sheering. Then you sheer for the wrong team and make a fool out of yourself. It's more fun to make a fool out of yourself when you're in a group. Then you can just blame the person you're with. Gosh, I don't know what I am going to to this weekend. I am thinking about seeing a movie but I want to see For A Good Time, Call  which premieres today but it is now showing in Santa Barbara, bummer. There is Brave , Hope Springs , Hit and Run  plus a bunch of other movies. Anyone in the Santa Barbara area who wants go and see one of these movies with me? Or some other movie? your writer, Erika

Hi, so apparently there are some demands of me blogging about the people that I've met. Well, most of the people that I've met are Swedish so, I mean they're Swedish. Not much different from other swedes. So that's it. It's like one girl said today (I don't remember her name, but I met her at the hostel) that one good thing came out of staying at that hostel, meeting a lot of new friends. Yeah. Okay, I have met people from other countries too. Today in my PD 101B class (don't remember the exact name of the class) I met a girl from China and an other girl from Saudi Arabia. We had to team up in class so I teamed up with them. The girl from Saudi is here with her husband who also goes to college here in Santa Barbara but at UCSB. She said that in Saudi women can't drive and instead they have drives to take them everywhere. Her family apparently has only two drivers which is a problem because everyone want do go different places all of the time. The girl...

Hi lovesters! How ya'll doing? I am fine, thanks for asking. Nice it's only about 11:50 AM I haven't done much today. I talked to my mom on skype and she told me about Cornelia's first birthday party. She ate so much cake that her parents had to change her clothes. LOL. I told my mom that I thought that it would be fun to go to a Julbord (Christmas buffe) when I come home. We talk about it every year but I don't know why it seems to be the only thing that we do, talk about it. Well, she said that she would keep an eye out for ads in about a month when they start popping up everywhere. Today I am going to check out some sight here in Santa Barbara. I have already seen the Stern Wharf (the pier) so I thought that take my Southern California travel guide to use. One of the places that I thinking about visiting is in one of my favorite movies, It's Complicated . How cool isn't that! Right! Good thing that I have my camera so that I can take alot of pictures....