Erika's World

Hi boys and girls! How ya doing? I'm all right. Just watching ANTM. What do you guys think of the new cycle, college edition. Yeah, I know, I should be on there. Hahaha, maybe I should apply to the Swedish version when I come home. Hahaha, maybe. Nah, I don't know. Do I even have model potential. I mean I know I am not ugly and I see people that I don't think have model potential, 'cause I think they're kind of ugly in a way but they're still models. So maybe I have a shot. Hahaha. Well, I believe that I (anyone for that matter and don't let nobody tell you different) can do anything I want as long as I am determined and give it my all. If you really want something you have to give it your all you can do anything, ANYTHING! That's I kind of why I don't want to come back to USA next semester. I am not feeling it. There is no passion, no chemistry, no energy, no spark. Nothing. No love. I mean, I don't know. I don't know what I thought that t...

So here we go again! OMG what am I doing. I know right. LOL, you are probably wondering what is she talking about. Okay, I'll tell you. I am looking up courses and programs to study at Stockholm University next semester. Basically for the following three years. Mostly for next semester. I mean, yeah, I know that my dream was studying here in America. Mostly I think that I was confused by what that dream really meant and I still am. What I really wanted to do was to take a year of and do a high school year but then I found out that I would have had to repeat that year when I came back to sweden so I just shook it off. I mean repeat a year no thank you. Well, I saw that as a waste of time then. Like "I don't have time for that shit.". I have always had that dream to come to America, New York, Chicago, Seattle or LA for like a vacation. So maybe I felt like this was kind of my only opportunity to go to America. I never really had any desires to go to Santa Barbara. But, ...

OMG, before I start I have to tell you about this crazy thing that happened on campus in one of the theatre classes last week. This guy brought a soft air gun to the class. He was high (one of the girls who were there said so), started talking about Jesus and then he put the gun on the teachers table and then said that he had a riddle for the class. Nothing happened though. The teacher took the guy out of the classroom and security escorted him out. Scary, nothing happened though but anyway. Okay, okay. So I have been thinking today. Maybe, that I want to be a journalist. That'd be cool. A fashion journalist. That'd be so cool. Writing for Elle ,  Vogue , or some other major magazine. I like writing and I think that that would be something that could make a living out of. Also I want to be screenwriter. That'd be cool too. There are some many thing that would be cool, you know. Maybe I should think like this; What do I enjoy? A: movies/ TV, writing, fashion, cooking. Gr...

Hi peeps! So today (as every Friday) I only had one class. Yeah! But it kinda sucks that it is at 8 AM. What are you going to do? I rather have morning classes than afternoon or worse evening classes. I mean 'cause then I have the rest of the day of to do whatever. You know what I mean. I mean I am young and I should enjoy my life (kinda hard when school keeps getting in the middle). Nah, but I had an okay day. After school I went and picked up a card that my mom had sent me to the old lady's address. She sent it before I moved to the new place. Then I had lunch, watched iTunes Festival - Jessie J (someone threw a bra up on stage?!) -, did some homework, went to Lazy Acres, watched The Ellen Degeneres Show , had dinner, more homework, did a facial, watched Americas Next Top Mode l, watched Glee and now I'm here. Yeah pretty much my day. Hehehe, think what you think. I don't know what I should be doing. I mean I am young, in college and all of that shit. Blah, blah, b...

It's one of those moments where I feel like letting my heart out out to you. I mean I don't know. I don't what to feel, what to think or what to do. I just, yeah, I just don't know anything. I know fact but that's not what we are talking about here. Totally different subject. I mean, you see, I never really wanted to to to the school I am going to. Okay there was a brief moment. I just applied to it because I felt like I didn't know what else to do if I'd stayed in Sweden this fall doing whatever. Before that, even when I was applying to all the different schools here in the U.S., I was uncertain if I wanted to continue to study. "Is that really what I want to do?" then came "If, you don't what then?" and also "Are you sure you can achieve everything you want with out it?". Plus, there was that feeling that I was compelled to go to school, by society and all that shit. 'Cause you know you are kind of looked down on if ...

You'll be my William and I'll be your Kate :) your writer, Erika

Despite everything I have actually had a good day. I mean what has happened and that I have school between 8 am and 5:05 pm but my FS 101 professor often lets us leave early. You know that I take to acting classes, right? Anyway if you don't now you do, and yeah, I do. They're so much fun because they are not like your typical class. You are more interactive with the other students. (Duh, it's an acting class). I mean not forced behind a desk with a book and assignments. It's not just you and thoughts, it's you and everyone it the class thoughts. I am the quiet type. Doesn't mean I don't have alot to say (basically the opposite), just that I tend to be by myself for some reason. Unless I know, then I am talkative. Not always, I just feel more comfortable talking to you if I know you. Do you get what I am saying? In my first acting class of the day - Beginning Acting - I had to do an improve scene with a guy (who totally cute) in the class. Our professor ...

Hi guys! OMG, it has be a crazy couple of days. I mean for me. The lady I am staying with is crazy! Well, she's weird. I mean I thought that everything was fine and then all of the sudden she started yelling at me when she came home from work yesterday. I was completely taken off guard, Like where is all of this coming from? She complained that I do certain things and that I don't to certain things. I am like what?! Completely taken off guard. When I moved in I asked her if she had any rules or something that she wanted me to do. She said no. All she said was that she wanted me to do my own dishes (which I do). That was it. Now she's made because I don't do this list of things that she didn't even tell me about. Then she was like "I think you better find an other place to stay." I was like what? Because another place means I'll have to go back to Sweden (which would be comfortable and nice). So I got sad and started crying. Then she said that she wasn...

OMG! I just saw that I haven't blogged since Monday, that is not good. I  my defense I have been sick so I saved all my energy for school and all of that boring shit. You know what I am talking about. Nah, but anyway now I am all better. Maybe not 100% 'cause I sort of still have a stuffy nose but except that, I feel prima. I am sitting here listening to my latest obsession, Conor Maynard. He got discovered just like Justin Bieber but not by Scooter and Usher, by Ne-Yo. He saw his cover of Beautiful Monster and then all of the labels went crazy. Or something like that, I don't know. I got my info from wikipeadia but I know that Ne-Yo know sort of discovered him anyway because Conor have said that. You should really listen listen to his music go to  http://www.youtube.com/user/ConorMaynardVEVO  and  http://www.youtube.com/user/skillzaisherebooya . A couple of weeks ago my mom send me a card and today it finally arrived. your writer, Erika

I'm just saying.... I told you yesterday about his amazing lad, Conor Maynard, and his amazing voice. To really understand what I mean you should definitely watch this video where he covers Nicki Minaj's Starships .  Just listen to his magical voice. your writer, Erika

OMG! I am an official Mayniac! Aka a fan of Conor Maynard, I am not crazy. Geez, keep up with the latest! LOL. Seriously, his voice. I mean damn! When he opens his mouth and start to sing it's like magic, I am under a trans. Seriously, if a guy sang to me with a voice like that I'll do anything. That is my achilles heel. Probably shouldn't have given that away, 'cause seriously I mean it. If he sang that he wanted me to sell my mom on ebay because he needed money, I'd do it. Sorry mom, you're just gonna have to pray for that I don't meet a guy with a voice like that 'cause all I can say is "Daaaaaaamn!" until I loose my breath. Daaaaaaaamn, that lad got skills (plus plenty of swag to make me do anything - you sing, I am yours!). Seriously, I'll sell my mom if he'd sang the words. Hahaha, I don't know if I'd actually sell my mom for him. All I am saying is that he has an incredible voice that makes my heart melt every time I he...

What ya'll bitches doing? I am sitting here watching Americas Next Top Model: College Editon . Yup. That's my Friday night. Lame, right, gosh I know. I was supposed to go to this football BBQ thingy at school tonight but no one seem to be going. Well, at least no one of my friends so I don't want to go then. It's also lame to sit there by yourself sheering. Then you sheer for the wrong team and make a fool out of yourself. It's more fun to make a fool out of yourself when you're in a group. Then you can just blame the person you're with. Gosh, I don't know what I am going to to this weekend. I am thinking about seeing a movie but I want to see For A Good Time, Call  which premieres today but it is now showing in Santa Barbara, bummer. There is Brave , Hope Springs , Hit and Run  plus a bunch of other movies. Anyone in the Santa Barbara area who wants go and see one of these movies with me? Or some other movie? your writer, Erika